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The Beckhams might spend a lot of time in sun-drenched parts of the world, but David still can’t help but be a cliché whenever the sun peeks its head out over here. 

The football superstar moaned that wife Victoria was laughing at him as he whipped off his top during a country walk amid the glorious weather we’re currently enjoying. 

Sharing photographic evidence of his topless wander on Instagram, David wrote: “Yep this is England. It’s what we do, sun comes out we take our shirts off. 

“Even walking the dogs when @victoriabeckham is laughing at me,” he joked.

Victoria is used to seeing David in a state of undress of late though, as she recently revealed he has taken to doing Zoom calls in his pants

In an interview with the Evening Standard, she said: “There were a few Zoom calls I caught him on, where he had a shirt and tie to here and literally his pants.

“The people he was on Zoom to would have been quite surprised if they had seen the full look.”

David was last seen with more clothes on when he appeared in the Friends reunion last week. 

He was seen discussing his love for the hit sitcom in a pre-recorded VT as the cast came together on screen for the first time in 17 years. 

 

He said: “You know I travel a lot and I’m always in hotels, I’ve always got down time. When I’m missing the kids, when I’m missing the family, I put on Friends because it makes me smile.”

Naming The One Where No One’s Ready from season three as his favourite episode, he added: “It’s one of those episodes that when I’m away and I’m feeling a little bit low, I put it on and it makes me smile – almost to the point of crying.” 

Asked which Friends character he relates to, David added: “I would have to say I’m most like Monica because I’m a clean freak.”

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2020 07 09T000000Z_470162734_RC2LPH9XW46N_RTRMADP_3_WIRECARD ACCOUNTS COLLAPSE.JPG

  • Wirecard's former chief executive Markus Braun has been rearrested in Munich as German prosecutors dug deeper into allegations of fraud at the fintech firm.
  • Two other executives — revealed by the Financial Times as Wirecard's former finance boss, Burkhard Ley, and Stephan von Erffa, ex-head of accounting — were also arrested.
  • Former chief operating officer, Jan Marsalek, has likely escaped to Russia with the "clear help of Russian intelligence," two officials told Business Insider. 
  • Wirecard filed for insolvency a month ago soon after revealing an amount of 1.9 billion euros ($2 billion) was missing from its balance sheet, and likely never existed.
  • Visit Business Insider's homepage for more stories.

Former Wirecard CEO Markus Braun has been arrested for the second time as German prosecutors probed further into a fraud investigation surrounding the company's reputedly inflated balance sheet.

Two other executives — named by the Financial Times as Wirecard's former finance boss, Burkhard Ley, and Stephan von Erffa, ex-head of accounting — were also arrested.

The German fintech group, which was once an analyst darling, is suspected of falsifying income from third-parties since 2015. Wirecard filed for insolvency a month ago soon after revealing an amount of 1.9 billion euros ($2 billion) was missing from its balance sheet, and likely never existed.

Wirecard borrowed funds amounting to 3.2 billion euros ($3.7 billion) from banks and investors in both Germany and Japan over the past five years. Due to the group's insolvency, the cash is likely lost, prosecutor Anna Leiding said, according to the FT.

Read More: Warren Buffett isn't warning about sky-high stocks because he 'doesn't want to make people mad,' veteran investor Bill Smead says

The arrests of Braun and his former colleagues reportedly follow prosecutors bringing up German Chancellor Angela Merkel's endorsement of Wirecard to Chinese officials back in September 2019, even though her top aides were aware of probes into its financial irregularities.

Oliver Bellenhaus, the head of Wirecard's Dubai subsidiary, CardSystems Middle East, was arrested earlier this month as part of the investigation into the company.

Alongside Braun's second arrest, mystery remains about the whereabouts of Jan Marsalek, the company's one-time chief operating officer.

Two European law enforcement officials told Business Insider this week that Marsalek likely escaped to Russia last month as officials attempted to question him about the massive balance sheet hole. 

He is said to have fled with the "clear help of Russian intelligence."

Braun was first arrested at the time in relation to market manipulation and false accounting.

Here's how Wirecard went from analyst darling to a $2.2 billion accounting scandal - and cost SoftBank hundreds of millions in the process

Read More: A Wall Street expert details the hurdles that must be cleared before a bitcoin ETF is approved — and explains why other investing substitutes for the crypto fall short

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Gary Lineker had a rather blunt reply in response to a tweet asking people to imagine the “worst possible situation you could wake up and find yourself in”.

And yes, before you ask, it involved that time he pooed himself in the middle of a World Cup match.

As you may recall, Gary was on the England squad during the World Cup 20 years ago, when he endured a mortifying moment during a game against Ireland.

Or, as the man himself put it back in 2014…

Well on Thursday afternoon, the Match Of The Day star brought it all up again (not literally though, don’t worry), when journalist Joel Golby tweeted: “What’s the worst possible situation you could wake up and find yourself in?”

Proving he has a sense of humour about the whole thing (well, you’d have to, really) he responded: “Play for my country in a World Cup game with hundreds of millions watching and shit myself on the pitch.”

The difference for poor old Gary is, most of the other responses to the original tweet weren’t actual lived memories…

Recalling the infamous moment during an appearance on The History Channel in 2018, Gary explained: “I had a bit of a dickie stomach, I don’t know where it came from. I managed to get through the first half despite terrible stomach cramps.

“You know, it’s a World Cup, you cannot say ‘Excuse me, ref, is it alright if I pop off for five minutes?’.

“Anyway, the ball went and I kind of go for it but I stumble a little bit. And as I stumbled, I... relaxed.”

Gary Lineker taking a tumble during a match against Ireland in 1990

He added: “I remember Gary Stevens coming up to me and he’s looking over me saying ‘are you alright?’.

“And I just remember saying: ‘I’ve shit myself.’ What do you do?”

Gary Lineker in the This Morning studio last year

Fortunately, Gary doesn’t seem to have done too badly out of the whole thing, having just been named the BBC’s top-earning presenter for the third year in a row.

It was recently announced he’d signed a new five-year deal with the BBC, which would also see him taking a 23% paycut.

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I’d been with Neil for 16 years when he died.

I would say it was love at first sight. He would smile and say “we got on okay”. I was pregnant with twins within two years of us meeting – which came as a surprise, but our girls couldn’t have been more loved. We made time for us, and for romance with date nights amid the chaos of a young family. Neil was always there for all of us.

The pain of his loss was searing. Our twin daughters, by then 13, were my only priority. Once I was widowed, I was lonely for a long time – but lonely for no-one else but Neil. I was grieving for the intimacy we’d known in a fulfilling sex life and couldn’t bear the thought of anyone taking his place. We both loved sex, and would laugh about how suited we were as we navigated the demands of a young family to find time for each other.

Nobody understood. Friends nagged me to give dating a go, and my support group of young widows and widowers told me of ‘widow’s fire’, a supposed attraction to lots of people, with flames of yearning often raging. 

I understood their longing for being close, for that skin-to-skin feeling that had been ripped from us. I empathised with the joy and release of orgasm, or just the chance to lose yourself in the enjoyment of sex. Some, I thought, were undoubtedly using sex to escape the pain of bereavement – though I would never judge any woman for quelling their widow’s fire, just as I would never judge anyone for enjoying a lively and fun sex life. 

Before him, I’d had several boyfriends and experienced one-night stands – which only seemed to damage my self-esteem more than they boosted it.

But I didn’t envy them. I put this down to the fact that I’d settled down quite late, meeting Neil when I was 28. Before him, I’d had several boyfriends and experienced one-night stands – which only seemed to damage my self-esteem more than they boosted it. Grief hugely knocked my confidence, and I considered a fleeting liaison a toxic prospect. 

It was seven years before I returned to dating. I selected ‘nothing serious’ on my dating profile. This was a big mistake. Some men told me I looked a lot younger than 50. Others asked if I would watch them pleasure themselves, perform oral sex in a lay-by, or meet at a motorway service station so they could smack my bum. Would I let them sniff my underwear or my feet? Would I take a picture in my toilet? 

It was often vile, a Wild West without the horses. Sex still wasn’t my motivation: I wanted companionship. On my first date, a man told me how wonderful his not yet ex-wife was, then asked me back to his hotel room. I declined. On the next, the man exposed himself in his car. “I thought you’d like it,” he said, shrugging, when I protested.  

I found it all far too soulless and depressing. I was terrified of sex, and pushed any thought of it out of my mind. I was scared of breaking down, crying. I’d read this could happen and felt I needed someone who understood the enormity of this. I wasn’t going to risk anything with some chancer off a dating site. I felt a responsibility to get it right, and avoid more emotional pain from making the wrong choice. 

I didn’t cry. It felt right. It didn’t feel like the massive deal step I’d imagined – I was happy and laughing when we first took tentative intimate steps.

Still, I went back to the dating sites some months later. I ended up seeing a lovely man who was gentle and caring – but it transpired emotional health issues hindered his sex drive. I was devastated – I never got a chance to see if I’d break down like I feared. 

Our relationship remained unconsummated but our split remembered how important sex was to me. After weeks of dodging feckless potential partners back online I met Simon, an intelligent man and a breath of fresh air. When I kissed him on the cheek at the end of our date, he was so surprised he jumped. He had gone more than a decade without a physical relationship after his divorce.

We took things slowly and helped each other to be ourselves, to remember what we love. Simon held me tenderly as I knew he would. I didn’t cry. It felt right. It didn’t feel like the massive deal step I’d imagined – I was happy and laughing when we first took tentative intimate steps, there was no thought of breaking down.  Sure, I was a little emotional but that was because I knew I was loved and secure. We’ve now been together two years and laugh lots, both in bed and out of it. 

If you’re reading this because you’ve been widowed and contemplating a physical relationship, I’ve learned the most important thing is to go at your own pace. Don’t feel pressured into anything, either while dating or from well-meaning friends who don’t understand why you’re scared to get back out there. Looking for love after loss isn’t easy, it can be fraught and complicated, but I know it can turn out okay. The best thing you can do is relax, do what feels right for you. It’s your life, and nobody else’s.

Linda Aitchison is a journalist and agency owner. Follow her on Twitter at @LindaAitchison

Have a compelling personal story you want to tell? Find out what we’re looking for here, and pitch us on [email protected]

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Problem is, the scientists don't understand how it's doing it

Neural networks can predict your biological age and sex just by analysing the pattern of your heart beats, according to new research published on Tuesday.

A convolutional neural network trained by a group of researchers from the Mayo Clinic College of Medicine and Science, a private research university based in Minnesota, could guess a person’s biological age and sex by studying their electrocardiograms (ECGs) with 90 per cent and 72 per cent accuracy.

The details have been published in the Circulation: Arrhythmia and Electrophysiology journal.

The AI doesn’t predict your actual age, Suraj Kapa, a cardiologist and co-author of the paper, explained to The Register.

The average error when the machine estimated someone's age was about seven years.

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BLACKSBURG, Va. -- Landos Biopharma, Inc., a clinical-stage biopharmaceutical company focused on the discovery and development of therapeutics for patients with autoimmune diseases today announced dosing of the first patient in a Phase 2 study evaluating the safety and efficacy of BT-11 in patients with mild to moderate ulcerative colitis (UC).

"Dosing the first ulcerative colitis patients in this Phase 2 study is a crucial milestone for Landos.

We believe the Phase 1 clinical results reinforced BT-11's benign safety profile and showed a response to treatment based on lower concentrations of fecal calprotectin, which we believe is a predictive biomarker of therapeutic response and extended clinical remission in inflammatory bowel disease (IBD).

The global Phase 2 study will utilize a randomized, placebo-controlled, double-blind, parallel-group, multicenter design to evaluate the safety, efficacy and tolerability of BT-11 compared to placebo in patients with mild to moderately-active UC.

Patients will be randomized to receive one of two doses of BT-11 (500 or 1,000 mg) or placebo for a 12-week induction phase followed by a maintenance phase.

"The medical community has long recognized the unmet need for safer, more convenient, and effective therapeutic alternatives to treating patients with ulcerative colitis," said Jean-Frederic Colombel, MD, a Landos Clinical Advisory Board member, world-renowned Gastroenterologist and Director of the IBD Center at the Icahn School of Medicine at Mount Sinai.

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The Beckhams might spend a lot of time in sun-drenched parts of the world, but David still can’t help but be a cliché whenever the sun peeks its head out over here. 

The football superstar moaned that wife Victoria was laughing at him as he whipped off his top during a country walk amid the glorious weather we’re currently enjoying. 

Sharing photographic evidence of his topless wander on Instagram, David wrote: “Yep this is England. It’s what we do, sun comes out we take our shirts off. 

“Even walking the dogs when @victoriabeckham is laughing at me,” he joked.

Victoria is used to seeing David in a state of undress of late though, as she recently revealed he has taken to doing Zoom calls in his pants

In an interview with the Evening Standard, she said: “There were a few Zoom calls I caught him on, where he had a shirt and tie to here and literally his pants.

“The people he was on Zoom to would have been quite surprised if they had seen the full look.”

David was last seen with more clothes on when he appeared in the Friends reunion last week. 

He was seen discussing his love for the hit sitcom in a pre-recorded VT as the cast came together on screen for the first time in 17 years. 

 

He said: “You know I travel a lot and I’m always in hotels, I’ve always got down time. When I’m missing the kids, when I’m missing the family, I put on Friends because it makes me smile.”

Naming The One Where No One’s Ready from season three as his favourite episode, he added: “It’s one of those episodes that when I’m away and I’m feeling a little bit low, I put it on and it makes me smile – almost to the point of crying.” 

Asked which Friends character he relates to, David added: “I would have to say I’m most like Monica because I’m a clean freak.”

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2020 07 09T000000Z_470162734_RC2LPH9XW46N_RTRMADP_3_WIRECARD ACCOUNTS COLLAPSE.JPG

  • Wirecard's former chief executive Markus Braun has been rearrested in Munich as German prosecutors dug deeper into allegations of fraud at the fintech firm.
  • Two other executives — revealed by the Financial Times as Wirecard's former finance boss, Burkhard Ley, and Stephan von Erffa, ex-head of accounting — were also arrested.
  • Former chief operating officer, Jan Marsalek, has likely escaped to Russia with the "clear help of Russian intelligence," two officials told Business Insider. 
  • Wirecard filed for insolvency a month ago soon after revealing an amount of 1.9 billion euros ($2 billion) was missing from its balance sheet, and likely never existed.
  • Visit Business Insider's homepage for more stories.

Former Wirecard CEO Markus Braun has been arrested for the second time as German prosecutors probed further into a fraud investigation surrounding the company's reputedly inflated balance sheet.

Two other executives — named by the Financial Times as Wirecard's former finance boss, Burkhard Ley, and Stephan von Erffa, ex-head of accounting — were also arrested.

The German fintech group, which was once an analyst darling, is suspected of falsifying income from third-parties since 2015. Wirecard filed for insolvency a month ago soon after revealing an amount of 1.9 billion euros ($2 billion) was missing from its balance sheet, and likely never existed.

Wirecard borrowed funds amounting to 3.2 billion euros ($3.7 billion) from banks and investors in both Germany and Japan over the past five years. Due to the group's insolvency, the cash is likely lost, prosecutor Anna Leiding said, according to the FT.

Read More: Warren Buffett isn't warning about sky-high stocks because he 'doesn't want to make people mad,' veteran investor Bill Smead says

The arrests of Braun and his former colleagues reportedly follow prosecutors bringing up German Chancellor Angela Merkel's endorsement of Wirecard to Chinese officials back in September 2019, even though her top aides were aware of probes into its financial irregularities.

Oliver Bellenhaus, the head of Wirecard's Dubai subsidiary, CardSystems Middle East, was arrested earlier this month as part of the investigation into the company.

Alongside Braun's second arrest, mystery remains about the whereabouts of Jan Marsalek, the company's one-time chief operating officer.

Two European law enforcement officials told Business Insider this week that Marsalek likely escaped to Russia last month as officials attempted to question him about the massive balance sheet hole. 

He is said to have fled with the "clear help of Russian intelligence."

Braun was first arrested at the time in relation to market manipulation and false accounting.

Here's how Wirecard went from analyst darling to a $2.2 billion accounting scandal - and cost SoftBank hundreds of millions in the process

Read More: A Wall Street expert details the hurdles that must be cleared before a bitcoin ETF is approved — and explains why other investing substitutes for the crypto fall short

SEE ALSO: Bill Ackman's blank-check company pops 9% in its trading debut

Join the conversation about this story »

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Problem is, the scientists don't understand how it's doing it

Neural networks can predict your biological age and sex just by analysing the pattern of your heart beats, according to new research published on Tuesday.

A convolutional neural network trained by a group of researchers from the Mayo Clinic College of Medicine and Science, a private research university based in Minnesota, could guess a person’s biological age and sex by studying their electrocardiograms (ECGs) with 90 per cent and 72 per cent accuracy.

The details have been published in the Circulation: Arrhythmia and Electrophysiology journal.

The AI doesn’t predict your actual age, Suraj Kapa, a cardiologist and co-author of the paper, explained to The Register.

The average error when the machine estimated someone's age was about seven years.

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Gary Lineker had a rather blunt reply in response to a tweet asking people to imagine the “worst possible situation you could wake up and find yourself in”.

And yes, before you ask, it involved that time he pooed himself in the middle of a World Cup match.

As you may recall, Gary was on the England squad during the World Cup 20 years ago, when he endured a mortifying moment during a game against Ireland.

Or, as the man himself put it back in 2014…

Well on Thursday afternoon, the Match Of The Day star brought it all up again (not literally though, don’t worry), when journalist Joel Golby tweeted: “What’s the worst possible situation you could wake up and find yourself in?”

Proving he has a sense of humour about the whole thing (well, you’d have to, really) he responded: “Play for my country in a World Cup game with hundreds of millions watching and shit myself on the pitch.”

The difference for poor old Gary is, most of the other responses to the original tweet weren’t actual lived memories…

Recalling the infamous moment during an appearance on The History Channel in 2018, Gary explained: “I had a bit of a dickie stomach, I don’t know where it came from. I managed to get through the first half despite terrible stomach cramps.

“You know, it’s a World Cup, you cannot say ‘Excuse me, ref, is it alright if I pop off for five minutes?’.

“Anyway, the ball went and I kind of go for it but I stumble a little bit. And as I stumbled, I... relaxed.”

Gary Lineker taking a tumble during a match against Ireland in 1990

He added: “I remember Gary Stevens coming up to me and he’s looking over me saying ‘are you alright?’.

“And I just remember saying: ‘I’ve shit myself.’ What do you do?”

Gary Lineker in the This Morning studio last year

Fortunately, Gary doesn’t seem to have done too badly out of the whole thing, having just been named the BBC’s top-earning presenter for the third year in a row.

It was recently announced he’d signed a new five-year deal with the BBC, which would also see him taking a 23% paycut.

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I’d been with Neil for 16 years when he died.

I would say it was love at first sight. He would smile and say “we got on okay”. I was pregnant with twins within two years of us meeting – which came as a surprise, but our girls couldn’t have been more loved. We made time for us, and for romance with date nights amid the chaos of a young family. Neil was always there for all of us.

The pain of his loss was searing. Our twin daughters, by then 13, were my only priority. Once I was widowed, I was lonely for a long time – but lonely for no-one else but Neil. I was grieving for the intimacy we’d known in a fulfilling sex life and couldn’t bear the thought of anyone taking his place. We both loved sex, and would laugh about how suited we were as we navigated the demands of a young family to find time for each other.

Nobody understood. Friends nagged me to give dating a go, and my support group of young widows and widowers told me of ‘widow’s fire’, a supposed attraction to lots of people, with flames of yearning often raging. 

I understood their longing for being close, for that skin-to-skin feeling that had been ripped from us. I empathised with the joy and release of orgasm, or just the chance to lose yourself in the enjoyment of sex. Some, I thought, were undoubtedly using sex to escape the pain of bereavement – though I would never judge any woman for quelling their widow’s fire, just as I would never judge anyone for enjoying a lively and fun sex life. 

Before him, I’d had several boyfriends and experienced one-night stands – which only seemed to damage my self-esteem more than they boosted it.

But I didn’t envy them. I put this down to the fact that I’d settled down quite late, meeting Neil when I was 28. Before him, I’d had several boyfriends and experienced one-night stands – which only seemed to damage my self-esteem more than they boosted it. Grief hugely knocked my confidence, and I considered a fleeting liaison a toxic prospect. 

It was seven years before I returned to dating. I selected ‘nothing serious’ on my dating profile. This was a big mistake. Some men told me I looked a lot younger than 50. Others asked if I would watch them pleasure themselves, perform oral sex in a lay-by, or meet at a motorway service station so they could smack my bum. Would I let them sniff my underwear or my feet? Would I take a picture in my toilet? 

It was often vile, a Wild West without the horses. Sex still wasn’t my motivation: I wanted companionship. On my first date, a man told me how wonderful his not yet ex-wife was, then asked me back to his hotel room. I declined. On the next, the man exposed himself in his car. “I thought you’d like it,” he said, shrugging, when I protested.  

I found it all far too soulless and depressing. I was terrified of sex, and pushed any thought of it out of my mind. I was scared of breaking down, crying. I’d read this could happen and felt I needed someone who understood the enormity of this. I wasn’t going to risk anything with some chancer off a dating site. I felt a responsibility to get it right, and avoid more emotional pain from making the wrong choice. 

I didn’t cry. It felt right. It didn’t feel like the massive deal step I’d imagined – I was happy and laughing when we first took tentative intimate steps.

Still, I went back to the dating sites some months later. I ended up seeing a lovely man who was gentle and caring – but it transpired emotional health issues hindered his sex drive. I was devastated – I never got a chance to see if I’d break down like I feared. 

Our relationship remained unconsummated but our split remembered how important sex was to me. After weeks of dodging feckless potential partners back online I met Simon, an intelligent man and a breath of fresh air. When I kissed him on the cheek at the end of our date, he was so surprised he jumped. He had gone more than a decade without a physical relationship after his divorce.

We took things slowly and helped each other to be ourselves, to remember what we love. Simon held me tenderly as I knew he would. I didn’t cry. It felt right. It didn’t feel like the massive deal step I’d imagined – I was happy and laughing when we first took tentative intimate steps, there was no thought of breaking down.  Sure, I was a little emotional but that was because I knew I was loved and secure. We’ve now been together two years and laugh lots, both in bed and out of it. 

If you’re reading this because you’ve been widowed and contemplating a physical relationship, I’ve learned the most important thing is to go at your own pace. Don’t feel pressured into anything, either while dating or from well-meaning friends who don’t understand why you’re scared to get back out there. Looking for love after loss isn’t easy, it can be fraught and complicated, but I know it can turn out okay. The best thing you can do is relax, do what feels right for you. It’s your life, and nobody else’s.

Linda Aitchison is a journalist and agency owner. Follow her on Twitter at @LindaAitchison

Have a compelling personal story you want to tell? Find out what we’re looking for here, and pitch us on [email protected]

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BLACKSBURG, Va. -- Landos Biopharma, Inc., a clinical-stage biopharmaceutical company focused on the discovery and development of therapeutics for patients with autoimmune diseases today announced dosing of the first patient in a Phase 2 study evaluating the safety and efficacy of BT-11 in patients with mild to moderate ulcerative colitis (UC).

"Dosing the first ulcerative colitis patients in this Phase 2 study is a crucial milestone for Landos.

We believe the Phase 1 clinical results reinforced BT-11's benign safety profile and showed a response to treatment based on lower concentrations of fecal calprotectin, which we believe is a predictive biomarker of therapeutic response and extended clinical remission in inflammatory bowel disease (IBD).

The global Phase 2 study will utilize a randomized, placebo-controlled, double-blind, parallel-group, multicenter design to evaluate the safety, efficacy and tolerability of BT-11 compared to placebo in patients with mild to moderately-active UC.

Patients will be randomized to receive one of two doses of BT-11 (500 or 1,000 mg) or placebo for a 12-week induction phase followed by a maintenance phase.

"The medical community has long recognized the unmet need for safer, more convenient, and effective therapeutic alternatives to treating patients with ulcerative colitis," said Jean-Frederic Colombel, MD, a Landos Clinical Advisory Board member, world-renowned Gastroenterologist and Director of the IBD Center at the Icahn School of Medicine at Mount Sinai.